”You die twice when your name is mentioned for the last time, ” is a saying that I recently stumbled across. This profound reflection on mortality and legacy has me becoming aware of a certain privilege invested in me.
Having lived for the better part of a hundred years there are of course a large number of people in my acquaintance who are no longer with us, including some who have been dead for many years. My memory of most of these has gradually disappeared into the mist of time, leaving but an outstanding few. Outstanding as in remarkable, no matter the reason. Needless to say I am not inclined to speak badly of the dead and leave the assignment of prolonging the immortality of a person responsible for a negative impact on my life to someone with better things to say.
Nor do I see the need to highlight those with a legacy beyond anything that I could meaningfully contribute to. My father Jürgen would be an example of this, his celebrity status as a German film director/actor forever enshrined on the internet not to mention his place in the annals of the family` s history dating back to the 12th Century.
In an earlier text I made mention of my primary school teacher at Abel Smith Primary School in Hertford, Mrs. Ramage and I think I should add Mr. Mileham, a teacher at Crawley College of Further Education both of whom sowed the seeds of lifelong inspiration. Mr. Mileham at one point even suggested I apply to Oxford. To this day I am flattered but a little unsure if that was not just a little over the top.
Undoubtedly two of the most influential people in my early years were my maternal grandparents, Alfred Sagebiel and his wife Elisabeth, née Hausmann. Opa, being his title since 1947 was a retired inspector of taxes who had served as a quartemaster in the Imperial German Army of the first world war and Oma was a housewife. Between them they offered me the heritage I would otherwise have been deprived of, in the form of a loving home during my summer holidays. Exclusively German in language and tradition with a distinct penultimate generational bias. I am their only grandchild and with no other contemporary relatives still alive, the only person left to ensure they do not die twice, at least for now.



